Too Much/Exactly Enough

I just spent half an hour sitting on the floor of the shower, under scalding water, not thinking.
Because if I started thinking, I would start panicking about how much is going on in my life.

Too many days without sleep
Too many rehearsals
Too many tests, papers, projects, and portfolios
Too many demands and disappointments
Too many things getting left in the past
Too much to finish
Too many things left unsaid.

And I fear I can't do it.
It's all just too much.

But I've found that every time I start to panic,
Every time my eyes well up and my hands begin to shake,
God steps in and reminds me that He's given me exactly enough.

Enough encouraging conversation
Enough support from my family
Enough friendship and laughter
Enough stubbornness to combat lack of stamina
Enough love and grace
Enough inspiration, beauty, and motivation
Enough blessing.

In my most worried moments, He reminds me,
He is more than enough.